It's been wayyyy too long!!!

So, I totally forgot about this blog again.... I swear sometimes I should be blonde! There's so much going on in my life now.... well... thats happened in the last year. I met this amazing guy!! Country is a freat guy, down to earth, honest.... I fell in love. We met thru Booty and Countrys best friend. We dated for about 10 months and 2 days before Christmas, he broke up with me out of the blue. I have NEVER been so hurt before in my LIFE!!!! I'm still not completely over it. His kids are just as amazing as he is and his family is great. He lives in a little ass town where everyone knows everyone. I loved going to his moms house and goin out in the timber and riding the 4 wheeler and playin with his kids.... and that's what hurts the most....I don't see his kids. I found out middle of Jan that he's dating someone with 3 kids who has broken up at least 3 marriages and has been married 2 times herself. He always told me he didn't want anymore kids and he never wants to get married again, but I went to his house one night to see his kids and went thru his phone while he was sleeping and they were talkin bout marriage. I was so CRUSHED!!! I'm over that part in my life. Time to move on and be me. I'm not looking for anyone, just having FUN!!!

I finally got my ass back in school! took 2 years, but I did it! I'm currently in my 2nd semester and loving every minute of it! I'm currently laid off so I'm looking for a 2nd or 3rd shift job so I can go to school during the day. I'm living back at my parents house w my doggie, but things are soooo much better with my parents. I actually enjoy being around them, well, most of the time!! lol =] Valentine's Day was hard for me, but I treated myself to a laptop and printer. lol I figured that since I didn't have a Valentine, I would be my own=] and I'm ok with that. I have to be. I'm done with the guys from my past!!!!!! I'm moving FORWARD with my life and thinking of NOONE but MYSELF!!!

I PROMISE I will try to blog at least once a week. I have a lot of spare time now! Booty lives an hour away so I spend more time at home!

Well, I gotta be up in 6.5 hours =[ and I have class tmrw so I think its gna be a long day. Loves and like ya'll =]

Been awhile.....

So...things w my ex hubby went downhill.... I never wanted to get back w him.... thought I did, but I think it was more of the fact that he's been in my life for a long time and instead of meeting someone new..... but I opened my eyes and I said fuck that!!! I wont go that route again!!! Vegas was freakin AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! me and Booty both got a tat of Viva Las Vegas on our buttcheeks. lol We wna go again SOON!!!!

As far as the guys in my life now.... I was talkin to this guy, we'll call him Match. Super nice guy, has his head on straight. good job, owns his house, has a kid that hes been raising for the last 12 years. I told him upfront that I didnt want lies and games, and I figured that since he was 32, he wouldnt do that. Boy was I wrong!?!?! lol and he lied about dumb shit. he lied about going to Chicago and about telling another friend of mine some info he didnt need to know. About the whole Chicago thing, I could care less if he was going or not. We were NOT together so he can do what he chooses. but why lie to me about when you know ur gna get caught up? and the whole telling ppl info that they dont need to know? are we back in junior high? lol it wasnt his info to share and when I asked him about it, he said he never said anything. so I told him then, Im done. Fuck it. I dont want a liar. So, now Im talkin to this guy and we will call him Fighter. Hes a great person!! Hes 26, trying to buy a house, decent job, always tells me how beautiful I am, isnt pushing for sex. Its nice to have a guy think about me for a change!!!! Last night I went to his house and we watched a movie, well trying to watch lol, and we started kissing and he was rubbing my back and things got real hot and heavy and when I told him to stop, he did!!

Ive going out ALOT lately!!! I need a damn job!!! lol me and Booty and our other bestie, who we will call Kids bc shes got 2 of them, have been going out EVERY Wed and Fri!!! and spendin wayyy to much damn money!!!! Fighter is coming out with us tonight tho =] super excited about that!!!! Have a safe wknd everyone!!!

Whats a Hoe?

so I like the title of this post.... it makes me wonder what a "hoe" actually is. Heres why I ask myself that.

In the last 7 days, I have slept with 4 guys. 3 guys Ive known for at least 4 years and 1 was a one nighter! Does that make me a hoe? lol I dont really care. Im single and Im having fun!!! haha =] Im careful thats all that matters.

so its been awhile since my last post and theres soooooo much to say. My ex hubby told me he is still in love with and wants to leave his wife so we can start fresh. I seen him at a local strip club where he works last weekend and we talked. I was super drunk and dont really remember alot of the convo =[ but we've been texting since, I know, I know. Im a dumbass. but I love him. He told me somethings that really got me thinking and makes me wonder if I did the right thing. Only time will I guess!

So....IM GOIN TO VEGAS NEXT WEEK!!!!! Im goin with Booty and a friend of hers. =] super excited!!! Im never gna be ready to go!!! I gta start packin like today!! haha we leave a week from tmrw!! We will be back on Sun!! AHHH!!!!!!

well.... my next post will prolly be after I get back from Vegas.... Im gna have to figure out how to post pics!!!

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Men Suck....

so the guy that I was calling Lust sent me an IM this morning out of nowhere. I havent talked to him in a couple weeks or whatever and he is now in Vegas. I asked him why he IMed me and he was FU then and deleted me off his Myspace.... like Im gna cry about it. lol what an ass.... its ok for him to talk to me when hes out of town, but when hes in town, he wont talk to me. fuck him! ass hole.

So, I have a new job! Im super excited about it!! I start on Mon and its for a huge local trucking company!!! The downsides so far is theres no internet use and no cell phone use unless on break or lunch! =[ Im gna miss my phone and internet! lol Its business casual so I had to go out and buy some nice clothes!! At my old job, I would wear sweats all the time!! lol Ill let u know how it goes!!

So last night I went to a bar with Booty! Nothing unusual bout that! haha well a guy that I know, but not really friends with was there and he was DRUNK!!! He almost fell backwards out of his chair and he was there by himself and noone else knew him so I walked over to him and the bartender said she thought he was doing coke at the bar and she threw it away. so we get Drunk outside, and he almost face planted like 5 times!!! so I finally get an answer out of him as to where he wants to go so we get him in my car in the backseat and Booty goes with me so I take him home, and he couldnt even walk, so me and Booty pulled him out of the backseat and left him lying by a tree!!! haha thats what the dumbass gets!!! I hope he froze bc it was FREEZING and I had on a thing shirt and I was freezing, plus when I woke up this morning, it was SNOWING!!!!! In freaking October!!!! I hate the midwest!!!!

But last night had its perks too!! =] I went to a guys house, we will call him B, but that was planned. Weve been talkin for a week or so. So I got down there, and we drank a couple beers and just talked. Ive known B and his roomie for like 10 years so we caught up =] after a few hours, me and B went to bed and we talked for a lil while longer and we snuggled!!! B is a good guy =] We are gna hang out again tonight. Him and his roomie are gna have a lil get together! Super excited!!!

Well....I gta get ready to go to a wedding!! Im gna freeze!! I gta pull my winter coat out!!! Have a safe wknd!!!

Unemployed

So me and my boss talked and I told her that it wasnt worth the gas for me to drive to work every day since its a half hour drive both ways, so she talked to her boss and now I am laid off and getting paid!!!! lol its boring though. I would rather be at work. When I wna do something, everyones sleeping bc they have work the next day!!! haha but its all good =]

Lust and I broke up. We dated for 3 weeks and then told me that we were moving too fast and said "its not u, its me" seriously!?!?! whatever. he would still IM me and text me and then he would get mad if I wasnt at home. Dude, we aint together. He told me that he grew out of the partying scene and thats one of the reasons we broke up, but since we broke up, hes drunk every night of the week callin me to come pick his ass up. He gets mad when I dont talk to him. Oh well.... he lost out on something great!!!! The one thing I miss about having a boyfriend is laying next to someone and snuggling. It sucks laying in bed everynight all by myself!! =[ but theres this guy, we will call him B, and Ive known him since junior high and he recently found me on myspace and we've been talkin and he told me how hes always had a crush on me. So tmrw night, hes going to cook me dinner =]

Booty and I are having the times of our lives!!! Its sooo nice not havin to answer to someone!! Thats why I dont want a man, just a snuggle buddy or a FWB! but who knows...we will see how things go with B..... =] been spendin alot of time at Bootys house watchin movies and just relaxing!!! She wants me to move in with her but with me not having a job, I dont think it will work. plus her dog doesnt like other dogs, and Im not willing to leave my dog at my parents house. and her house is creepy at night!!! lol not really, but I get paranoid! haha and my room would be in the basement and her ex is crazy!!! we had a bonfire a couple weeks ago and she sat next to a guy friend of ours and like 5 seconds later her ex was callin her askin who the f*ck she was sittin next too!!! OMG!!! We were freakin out!! but I know I would be safe there because her dog will let u know if ANYONE is walkin by, if theres a car driving by, everything! plus shes a bigger dog and her bark is intimidating! haha

Well.... I gta get ready =] might go to the ballpark and watch B play, but its cold outside and Im a wuss!!!

Boy Toy =]

So, I met a guy! We will call him Lust, bc I'm in lust! lol A mutual friend gave him my number (with my consent!) and we pretty much kicked it off. we met at a local pool hall the next night and had a really good time!! We ended up goin downtown by the river and walking and we found a bench and just sat there for like 2 hours and talked. We have alot in common. I've seen every night since =] he's a really great guy. He's got his past and I have mine. We have been up front and honest with each other. We have amazing chemistry!!!! He was married before and has a son. which I am totally ok with!!! We talk all day long, or rather text all day long! =] and we still have things to talk about when we see each other. but we will see where it goes!!

Work sucks. I hate only getting 22 hours a week!! I've been lookin for a new job for like 6 months!!!! but it also gives me more time at home with my fam n my doggie!!! Ever since me and the EX broke up, we have talked a little bit and we both agree that we are better off as friends. He has a new girlfriend and I got Lust =] so...there are no problems there!!! I still talk to him a couple times a week. He's taken my doggie for the wknd. I will always trust him. I just can't be with him like that.

I've been goin out every wknd lately with my BFFFFF who we will call Booty bc she has a big ass! lol I've known her for like 10 years and we have always gotten along! She's one of the only friends that I have that dont have kids! plus she likes to party!!! me and Lust went to her work w her one night and we got CRAZY!!!!! but it was sooo much fun!!! When I'm with Lust, I'm not allowed to pay for anything!!!! I bought him a shot, and he wasnt gna drink it bc I paid for it! I was sooo drunk that night and I only spent $20!! and thats including food =] he opens the door for me, tells me how beautiful I am, how gorgeous my eyes are. =] but hes goin out of town this wknd w his brother so I wont get to party w him! but me and Booty are goin out on Fri!!! always a good time when we are together! and Lust knows. that Im goin out w her, but he also knows that I wont do anything Im not supposed too!!!

Well, Im goin to bed.... if ur a lurker, follow me!!! Night all!!

So...

I'm going to tell you what made me as of today!

I started at my job in April 2006. During that fall/winter, I hooked up with a guy that I work with and still work with. We were never a couple, but we were always together. I wanted more, h e didn't so I walked away. A month later, I met the EX. An aquaintance of mine was prego by him, but I didnt know bc we never really talked. So I move in with him 3 months into our relationship, and everything was fine. That next summer, we got married. We went on our honeymoon (fought most of the time) and when we came back home, we moved in with my parents bc I wanted a house. So a few months into our marriage, while living at my parents, I found some condoms and hotel room keys, and I know I hadnt been to a hotel! So.... I confronted him. He denied everything. Had an excuse for EVERYTHING. and so I kick him out. He moved out like 15 days later, bc he had nowhere else to go. After he moved out, I found out his girlfriend was pregnant. Nice. So I got a lawyer and I had to get a restraining order bc him and his gf threatened to kill me. (I pick the winners!!!) So, when he left, he took ALOT of my things too. socks, underwear, clothes, alarm clock, pictures that I had given my mom, $2000 worth of Pampered Chef that my sis (who I didnt talk to at the time gave me) and some jewelry. All I wanted from the divorce was money that was owed to me for a total of $3000. This was a boy who made $3000 a month easy. So, it took me almost a year to FINALLY get him to agree to MY terms and my divorce was finalized on my bday this year!!! WOOHOO!!! Best gift he EVER could have given me. lol I learned not to wear my heart on my sleeve. There was sooooooo much more. but I dont wna get into that now.

I found out today that one of my BFF's is mad at me. We'll call her AB. Supposedly I said something about her, but she wont tell me what I said. Fuck it.

Im gettin off....gta take a neice to unpack her backpack at school!! Shes in 1st grade now!!!!